I think I’ve somehow mellowed out.

I like pretty much everyone I know now.

I don’t hate anyone anymore.

I had a moment a few weeks ago, no, ‘

It was before the holidays.

Anyway, it was a really late school night.

About 8 O’Clock.

I had been shopping, and bought my TAI… ticket,

So I was super happy.

I was standing at Railway Square,

When I saw someone who at that time I didn’t

Particularly like much.

So I moved back into the shadows.

And then she got on my bus.

So I had to talk.

And it was great.

We just spoke about everything, everyone.

And I realised that I was fine.

I used to think she was so annoying,

But that stopped.

I understand her a lot more.

And somehow, myself.

I’ve been so happy for the past few months.

I think I realised that I have a great life ahead of me,

And I can do what I want, and what other people

And my parents say doesn’t matter because I can make my own choices.

I have a huge independent streak,

But now I’m using it better.

I still get in a lot of trouble.

But I at least have aims now.

I can now take consequences.

The Used changed my life.

The List show was the first time I’d ever really taken consequences.

Although I was dead like you wouldn’t believe,

I had a great time, (not to mention Jeph’s bottle

And getting some water Bert spat in my mouth!)

But it was worth it.

I’ve got things in perspective now.

I know that I can skip school, sneak out to concerts,

But I now care if I’m in trouble.

Plus its not very safe either!

I used to not like Eliza Cuts either.

Because I thought she was a camera whore,

And I’d heard bad things.

I didn’t want Gerard to be with someone like that.

I mean, I could care less who he was screwing.

(Italian men have ugly penises anyway!)

We all know he is having sex with someone.

(Eg: “You want to fuck me? Well that seats already taken!”

“I’m not your daddy! I use protection!”)

He is twice my age anyway.

I was just worried that he was with someone who will

Use him.

Someone that means so much to me being with someone like that

Made it a crappy month after they got engaged

(Which probably sounds really lame).

But the day I found out they were coming back,

and they weren’t together,

(all in the same article!!!)

was the best few minutes I had all holidays!

I could move on then.

I didn’t need to mope around, wishing

they would come back.

So anyway, now I really like Eliza!

The white hair was so good.

If you are reading this….

Expect white hair by the end of the year!

If the school won’t let me,

Christmas holidays then!

(no comment on the possible new girlfriend for now...) 

This is super long.

I’m gonna stop now.

But it was fun writing!

Annie xx

(Autopsy)