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I think Iâ�™ve somehow mellowed out.

I like pretty much everyone I know now.

I donâ�™t hate anyone anymore.

I had a moment a few weeks ago, no, â�˜

It was before the holidays.

Anyway, it was a really late school night.

About 8 Oâ�™Clock.

I had been shopping, and bought my TAIâ�¦ ticket,

So I was super happy.

I was standing at Railway Square,

When I saw someone who at that time I didnâ�™t

Particularly like much.

So I moved back into the shadows.

And then she got on my bus.

So I had to talk.

And it was great.

We just spoke about everything, everyone.

And I realised that I was fine.

I used to think she was so annoying,

But that stopped.

I understand her a lot more.

And somehow, myself.

Iâ�™ve been so happy for the past few months.

I think I realised that I have a great life ahead of me,

And I can do what I want, and what other people

And my parents say doesnâ�™t matter because I can make my own choices.

I have a huge independent streak,

But now Iâ�™m using it better.

I still get in a lot of trouble.

But I at least have aims now.

I can now take consequences.

The Used changed my life.

The List show was the first time Iâ�™d ever really taken consequences.

Although I was dead like you wouldnâ�™t believe,

I had a great time, (not to mention Jephâ�™s bottle

And getting some water Bert spat in my mouth!)

But it was worth it.

Iâ�™ve got things in perspective now.

I know that I can skip school, sneak out to concerts,

But I now care if Iâ�™m in trouble.

Plus its not very safe either!

I used to not like Eliza Cuts either.

Because I thought she was a camera whore,

And Iâ�™d heard bad things.

I didnâ�™t want Gerard to be with someone like that.

I mean, I could care less who he was screwing.

(Italian men have ugly penises anyway!)

We all know he is having sex with someone.

(Eg: â�œYou want to fuck me? Well that seats already taken!â�

â�œIâ�™m not your daddy! I use protection!â�)

He is twice my age anyway.

I was just worried that he was with someone who will

Use him.

Someone that means so much to me being with someone like that

Made it a crappy month after they got engaged

(Which probably sounds really lame).

But the day I found out they were coming back,

and they werenâ�™t together,

(all in the same article!!!)

was the best few minutes I had all holidays!

I could move on then.

I didnâ�™t need to mope around, wishing

they would come back.

So anyway, now I really like Eliza!

The white hair was so good.

If you are reading thisâ�¦.

Expect white hair by the end of the year!

If the school wonâ�™t let me,

Christmas holidays then!

(no comment on the possible new girlfriend for now...)

This is super long.

Iâ�™m gonna stop now.

But it was fun writing!

Annie xx

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